[Verse 1]

They said the ache inside me had a name

That every doubt I carried was the same

They told me if I crossed that line

I’d finally leave the pain behind

I was tired of fighting mirrors every day

Tired of praying feelings would go away

When you’re hurting, you believe the hand

That says, “I know who you really are.”

[Pre-Chorus]

I wasn’t strong, I was worn thin

I wasn’t brave, I just gave in

I thought the answer lived in change

I didn’t know I’d still feel strange

[Chorus]

What have I done, and where do I stand?

I changed my body trying to quiet my mind

You said I’d be free if I followed the plan

But I brought all my pain to the other side

How could you say this was the only way through?

How did I trust you knew what was best?

I’m not who I was, I’m not who I knew

Tell me now—what do I do next?

[Verse 2]

Every scar has a story I can’t erase

Every choice still looks back at my face

You cheered me on when I said I was sure

But certainty feels different than before

I thought the anger would finally sleep

That the sadness wouldn’t follow me

But it moved in with a louder voice

Now regret is part of the noise

[Pre-Chorus]

I needed help, I needed time

Not promises dressed up as signs

You called it truth, you called it care

But no one told me to beware

[Chorus]

What have I done, and where do I stand?

I changed my body trying to quiet my mind

You said I’d be free if I followed the plan

But I brought all my pain to the other side

How could you say this was the only way through?

How did I trust you knew what was best?

I’m not who I was, I’m not who I knew

Tell me now—what do I do next?

[Bridge]

Maybe this was always my fight

But I wish someone slowed the night

Asked me why before they said yes

Let me heal before they said “press ahead”

I don’t hate who I tried to be

I just wish someone protected me

From choices that don’t rewind

From answers that came too fast

[Final Chorus]

What have I done—can I still be whole?

Is there a way back, or only through?

I wanted relief, I wanted control

I wanted peace—but I wanted truth

If this is my life, I’ll carry it on

But don’t call silence the same as care

I needed help long before the change

I needed someone to slow me there

[Outro]

I don’t know the name of who I am

I just know I’m still here, still trying to stand

If you hear my voice, please understand

Not every question needs a knife in hand